I also really, truly don't care about money, and the money was never the focus of the thing. I'm not in this career for money. I'm in because I love flying, and because I want quality of life, and right now I have none. I have no interest in "the brass ring" or anything of that nature. I would love a career that I can be loyal to and enjoy for a few more decades before I call it quits.
First off, good talk the other day. Still, we talked about this a bit, but... go fly medevac. High quality of life, nocturnal schedule, work with cool people, make a difference. It's that or find some other segment of aviation to explore. One of the best things about single pilot is there's nobody sitting next to you to give you a hard time. Also, one of the worst things about single pilot is there's nobody sitting next to you to give you a hard time.
I also will not be pressured into conforming
Then I suspect 121 is not for you - I doubt you will be happy in that environment. That's fine, I would have done it for the money but deep down I know I wouldn't have been happy (though, it is hard to be unhappy when you have a sailboat). Still, 121 is probably the most conformist sector of flying. You're literally required by the company to dress like a bellhop because Juan Trippe had a uniform fetish 100 years ago.
But it's also not necessarily true - you'll conform sometimes. Aviation is conformity. Let's say you were flying an airplane with synthetic vision and ADS-B in and there happens to be a small cloud in front of you - you probably navigate around it even though you
know that there is no real risk to go through it, you
know there's nobody else on the other side. You likely stop loading the airplane at max gross - or do some shenanigans (moving bags to the overhead or whatever) so that you're under MGTOW on paper, even if it's only 100lbs or so and you could never tell the difference in performance anyway. That's conformity.
When you go through training, you
conform to the requirements of the operation. The term in the industry is literally
basic indoctrination. No, you'll conform to things you agree with, but not to other things. That's fine, I am/was mostly the same way, but it probably precludes a happy career in 121. A successful career is possible, but probably a happy one is not.
and tough love is bullying, not care.
different people come from places "hurt people, hurt people" and the like.
That said, some of the best and most important advice I have ever gotten has been "tough love." Advice is like a butthole though, everyone has one, so you can take it or leave it. People may not know a better way to show they care than bluntly tell you what they think. I wouldn't let it bother you.
Best way it’s been put to me a very long time ago, when I too have gotten frustrated at places I’ve been: “Daff, here’s the lowdown. This place is train that moves along at 5 mph. You can get in front of it and try and pull it, you can get behind it and try and push it, or you can get on it and ride along. But no matter what you do, it only moves at 5 mph. No more, no less.”
Damn this is good advice, especially for my new job. I know it wasn't directed towards me, but thanks for sharing this.
Time to pivot; AS didn’t hire you… pivot to another carrier. Don’t want to work for another carrier? Pivot to another sector of aviation. Just like “paying dues” you have to play the game in order to advance. You can’t upend the Monopoly board in life and then be upset when you have to restart the game over from square one. So don’t start over again… pivot.
This is glorious advice.
• CLEP is a good suggestion, though I'm determined not to get a degree until after I have a job so that I have a purity of motivation for it.
Why? I mean, who cares? You can do both - you can want to study something
and you can see it as beneficial to you. I did that when I studied math, then I did it again when I got my masters. And guess what? It's paid off, I'm gainfully employed now
and I really liked what I studied. Remember, going to college doesn't guarantee a job, it's just possible that it could help.
The quest for purity is silly - nothing is fully pure.
Don't stand in your own way, you're totally smart enough for it. You're not going to look back at 85 or whatever on your death bed and think, "if only I hadn't gone to college." Also, I think I've said this in other places, I don't think you need college to be a pilot or even a good person (there are loads of • humans who are also college graduates), but still, doing something that's hard that you don't want to do that requires doing what you're told largely by people you don't trust or respect is... (and I hate to say this) kind of good for people to experience.
College is hard - the material is not - the actual experience of suborning yourself to the whims of others is hard, but it's a really good thing to learn to do.