For those of you who said i was "stupid" and a "fool", you don't know the situation and nobody appointed you judge, jury, and executioner.
Second of all, i DID NOT try to take off in a DAMAGED airplane. The damage happened on the second takeoff attempt, the first time i ran off the runway but the plane was fine, i got out on the ramp and visually inspected it and there was no damage. The winds suddenly shifted from a 10kt xwind to a 21kt crosswind. I also had 16 gallons total fuel in the tank, not dangerously low but there was a stronger than expected headwind and i didn't want to put myself in the situation of running out of fuel, so i planned a stop on the way back!
Thirdly, i realize my mistakes. I should NEVER have tried to land there with that crosswind, i should have went around. Was i scared? YES!!!!!! I will NEVER do anything like that again and i will most likely never fly again. As for the FAA taking my license i did nothing illegal and i filled out a NASA form.
I KNEW i should have never posted this here.