Well a few weeks later and a little bit wiser(i hope)
my parents and i have talked about all the options, and it looks like im going to apply for the key loan, and my parents are going to help me.
They arn't going to co-sign, but they are, over time, going to pay half my loan. Which help considerably, obviously.
My play now is to go and get up to my cfi, and then hopefully get myself into an intern position. My dad says it will be good for me, I'm only 20, not married, no kids, so i can pretty much go anywhere for the internship. Not sure if that narrows it down a bit, but it might.
I have thought about everything, and I think i wouldn't mind flying commercial, but i would prefer something a little smaller.
I'm not concerned about it really, because i realise that i just want to fly.
They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, and its completely true. My trainer that i've been training in, just got a new engine, and the mechanic couldn't get to it, so my plane has been grounded for about a week and a half. I have been aching to fly so bad.
so yea, thats my story. now i have to email the flight safety people cause when i was moving i think one of my friends threw away my information packet they sent me, and when i did my campus visit, i had a bunch of info on grants and the key loan info. so now i have to get it all back again.
thanks for all the info thus far.