I don’t get why people who aren’t on the investigation team listen to these, you can learn the lessons needed from the transcripts and the report without the psychological effects of listening to it. Just kinda seems like horror voyeurism to me.
IDK ... the psychological impact of work in the field (firefighting, 911, critical incident response team for support of others) is well more than one might imagine. I listen to these, almost against my will, because they remind me of every hand I held as one's spirit left, every trauma I attended, and every funeral I did for a first responder or victim because of my station at the time.
I think that I remember, and want to be reminded, because those lives were important to people ... they mattered. I chose the pain of being with them because someone had to at the time, and - inadequate as I may have been - I was better than nothing as they stepped into the dark unknown, for them and for their loved ones at the following funerals.
No hero here. Don't mistake me for someone who made a difference by rushing in (although I saved a cat once in a fire).
Voyeurism, maybe? "Kink shame?". Ehh ... if you want ... Weirdos? Maybe not as much as one might think. Of course, YMMV, as appropriate to your place and time in life.
IDK, I listen and I remember things from days gone by, and I think of those who blurt out last words, and I wonder what the last thoughts were of those who died by choice or circumstance when, as responders, we couldn't make a difference, however hard we tried.
As the years pass and eternity looms, one often finds it ... important ... to wonder how others met the great unknown, and how we might do so as that moment draws more closely nigh.
