BravoHotel
Well-Known Member
I need another perspective. Professionally the last year plus I was in a holding pattern. I just plodding toward my goal, there are many times I wanted to abandon ship. In fact I had both feet over the edge one hand on the railing timing the swells and looking to swim to the land mass as we drifted by. For what ever reason I got back on the ship even though at times it felt like it was adrift and going in the wrong direction! One time I actually did jump. I saw a patch of land that looked magical but turned out to be a bunch of poop keeping the grass green. I was able to get back on the ship as it drifted by. The ship for me was the dropzone. Yeah I was flying but I sure wasn't going anywhere.
But here I am, the first week into the goal of which I have strived so long for. I'm not saying I am going to jump ship or anything. But it just feels strange. The other half mentioned I need to find what makes me tick, what drives me. Working at the drop zone I think obscured that. Here I am, and I see so many things happening around me and I wonder why it took so long to get here. Especially with people who had bigger stumbling blocks to overcome and they arrived so much quicker. I just feel sorta not very excited about the whole situation when I should be.
But here I am, the first week into the goal of which I have strived so long for. I'm not saying I am going to jump ship or anything. But it just feels strange. The other half mentioned I need to find what makes me tick, what drives me. Working at the drop zone I think obscured that. Here I am, and I see so many things happening around me and I wonder why it took so long to get here. Especially with people who had bigger stumbling blocks to overcome and they arrived so much quicker. I just feel sorta not very excited about the whole situation when I should be.