now I am permanently disqualified.
I wouldn't take "permanently disqualified" as gospel.
I was once told by the FAA flight surgeon, for the Southern Region, that if I took a certain medicine that I needed after a workplace accident that I would be permanently disqualified from my atc job at ATL Tower/TRACON, and would
never get my atc license back.
Took the medicine, was out of work on workmans comp for a while, fought with the DOL-OWCP daily for almost a year, sold almost every item in my life that had worth to continue to be able to put a roof over my wife's/children's heads, had 3 spinal surgeries to fix what almost destroyed me from the workplace accident, went back to work (non-atc), did lots of research which came down to a conference call between my tower chief, the FAA AME and myself.
Tower chief to FAA AME: "well CJ's concern about going back for another physical is that you told him that if he ever took XXX medication he would never get his Class 2 back and would be permanently disqualified from atc forever"
FAA/AME: "we have tell that to everyone because there are a lot of fakers out there trying to get extended time off and a free retirement, so we tell everyone that at the onset".
Me: who had been fighting daily for almost 2 years, undergoing 3 very dangerous spinal surgeries (including the insertion/removal of a spinal cord stimulator), working for worthless dicks (think people that washed out of every facility they ever tried to work at and are now making the rules, and you're now their secretary) in the regional office while I fought to get back to my facility and get my career back.
Went to the physical, passed, got my license back, worked at A80 another 14 years, retired the day I turned 50.
Point being, "permanently disqualified" really, at least in my case, wasn't permanent. The FAA AME are just worthless dicks sometimes.