To the OP:
CoffeeIcePapers response is pretty accurate. Its really not too bad.
Part of any struggle new to 121 as an FO, is you learn to be whatever breed of chameleon suits you in the moment, or your personality.
Most guys you can always find some level of candor that makes for good conversation, and for those that you cant, there are always options.
You can (usually) “study” whatever your currently interested in, or, my personal favorite, reserved for those that are well beyond my level to empathize and connect with, add fuel to their fire…Im sure its poor CRM but boy is it fun to me to ramp someone up and feed into their deluded realities (on both sides of the spectrum) at cruise on a transcon redeye.
I had the funniest conversation with a friend of mine the other day who ive talked with alot at/about work and he gave me the highest compliment i could imagine…”Dude, i gotta ask cause i really have no idea…(where are your larger political views”.
Be a chameleon, then when the brake is set on the last leg, and you strip the uniform off, be you and don't give it a second thought. Do your job, fly the bird, keep the standard, and its truly the easiest money youll ever make.