I'm actually somewhat amused at the reception here. I've waited a couple days to post this because I wasn't completely sure of the right way to express it without sounding condescending or critical. In fact, quite the opposite -- I wish I could help you guys see this video the same way that I do when I watch it.
As someone who has had to also dodge SAMs, and has had at least one very close call, I can tell you that it was one of the most significant emotional life-changing events of my entire life. It scared the living snot out of me -- terrified like I have never been at any other time. I'm sure that it was a similar case for the Viper pilot in this video.
Yet, the responses from folks who watch the video are "cool" and "wow!" That's not a criticism of any of you guys, again, it's just an observation...it's too bad that you guys don't experience a video like this in the same way that I do (and like other guys with similar experiences do).
I know that before it happened to me, I had a pretty romanticized view of combat, and of things like getting shot at. I thought that it was one of these things like I saw in the movies where steely-eyed warriors would stare each other down with clenched jaws and flexing muscles...a very glamorized view of things. When I asked Vietnam and Desert Storm vets about their experiences, their replies surprised me -- very few of them wanted to talk about it, and those that did never really got into the details. I just didn't understand it...why wouldn't they want to talk about something so "awesome".
Well, now I get it. Getting shot at is highly over-rated. Actually living through a situation where, in the back of your mind, you are acutely aware that you might really, actually die, is a phenomenally terrifying experience. There's nothing glamorous or sexy or awesome about it.
When I felt these things after my experiences, I was actually quite embarrassed about it. Embarrassed that I'd been scared by these brushes with death. I thought I was supposed to be one of those steely-eyed guys who took it all in stride, like that story in the intro to Wolfe's The Right Stuff. It was a watershed moment when, in talking to a friend who is a Vietnam combat vet fighter pilot, he replied to my story by saying, "well OF COURSE you were terrified. Jesus, anyone who says they weren't scared to death when they were getting shot at is a liar or in heavy denial!"
So, the amusing observation about this thread and people's posted responses is just what these videos are reduced to in the information age. They're shared over the internet, and people see them without context. Taken just on face value, the videos lack the gripping human side of the story that really makes them amazing to see and hear. For many, it's like watching a TV show or playing a video game. It may be interesting, amusing, exciting. Some may not really be interested in it at all.
When I watched this video, I moved up to sit on the front of my chair. I got a little closer to the screen to look at the details in the HUD. I turned up the volume on the speakers. My heart rate went up, I started to sweat a little, and I got a little jittery. It was a visceral reaction to what I was witnessing.
It's not some weird PTSD flashback for me, I was just subliminally putting myself in that guy's shoes and experiencing that with him...and I understand what he must feel like at that moment. The strange mix of fear and excitement, all the while his mind racing to precisely execute the tactics he's studied and practiced over and over prior to that moment. It socks me in the gut when I watch it. It reminds me, too, of how such an experience put life's priorities into perspective (which is actually an extremely good thing).
I certainly don't wish that any of you ever gain that insight for yourselves--combat is a phenomenally ugly thing that nobody should have to experience--but I sure wish there was a way I could share that experience with you when you watch a video like this. I think you'd see it, and life, in a whole different way if you did.